I don't want to hurt, I don't want to cause trauma, I want to stop being empty inside, I want to grow and stop behaving immaturely and I want to do it once and for all.
Could it be that in life human beings are obliged to hurt?
Why do we choose to hurt?
What makes the other person so irrelevant and hurt them without compassion?
As a person and a human being I have always believed in empathy and how important it is to develop it.. however, there are some occasions like impulses and I do not know what else, makes this disappearance of momentary empathy fades and we throw ourselves towards the prey to destroy it. the truth is that although in the past I did not mind hurting, or at least I ignored the compassion I felt and the regret because whenever I think about the past and my behavior with people I always think ... how would I be like this? ... I recognize that when I was least concerned about something (including other people's feelings) I felt less stress and it was strange because I felt a strange positivism, I think it was a "pseudo positivism" if you can call it like that.
But how can you be positive and insensitive at the same time? Is this possible? I also think that one of the main reasons was because I was young and immature. I am thankful that this period of my past has passed.
My today is different. I have more empathy and more compassion for people. I don't want to think that human beings have to hurt people just because it is "inevitable" to hurt. I think we can fix misunderstandings without hurting others, at least putting ourselves in each other's shoes more often, being less impulsive and controlling our emotions, the latter is the one that I have had to work more on, as I am very emotional.
Today I am more sensitive than before, I suffer more for that but I think it is worth it.
